Trenton Train Station

So I'm sitting at the train station 20 minutes before the train supposed to arrive. I've never been this nervous or emotional before a trip.  Sarah anger, I'm AA long time friend and angel in our lives, comma meet me at the house and brought me to the train station offering reassurance in word and presents. Thank you Sarah thank you Carrie for introducing U sing us all those years ago.

I left Santiago with Judy and I'm starting to cry again just thinking about it. I have no idea where I'm staying tonight or where I'm staying when I get to Santiago, But I feel like it's all in sync with the way of the Camino. I have never done anything so solo before. I'll be joining Meg but all the arrangements until we meet are up to me. I had a minor panic attack in the car about ditching my 2nd of 2 SPF long sleeve shirts and instead choosing to keep the light jacket.. What was I thinking? How am I going to pack the jacket? You already know how you're going to to pack it. You've made accommodations for it. It will be perfect at night when you wear the sun dress. Trust the process.. I also started talking to to myself about trusting the entire process of the journey the trip the plans the arrangements and that it was all OK OK and I calmed down but each step along the way. Each new piece like getting to the train station catching the train I find myself questioning did I do the right research do I have the right information did I the right information did I mess up? And here is where I have to get back to trust the process trust yourself trust your guidance. The big message behind the Camino from what I can understand is That the Camino provides.. So I'm going to start that process right now and that I already have where trust the process pretty much is the same thing same idea as the Camino provides my Camino doesn't begin when I get on the path from Santiago my Camino begins now my Queen O is my life the journey it's more of a mindful way way of remembering Remembering that that the force that brings us into life provides for life even when it feels like everything's in a giant s*** storm. I know that sounds really lame in the face of some kind of real trauma but but for right now it's what's gonna hold me together the Camino provides life force the creator provides it's up to me to be mindful thankful mindfully aware that I am being guided by guided by a beneficent powerful force of love in every minute of every day whether I'm walking the way of Saint James in Spain or In the grocery store in Bordentown New Jersey.

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